I have been...I still...

I have been hopeless

I have been alone

No company, not even a sound

I have been pushed back

I have been down in the abyss

Lying gagged & bound

I have been beaten

I have been cut open

Left bleeding on the ground

I still lived through & survived

I still believed

Got up...refused to be drowned

I still thought of you

I still saw a reason to smile

Thanked the love I had found

I still am scared

I still have sleepless nights

Comfort is having you around